I haven’t been to a church service in 8 months. And I can tell ya, I’m not going to be attending one anytime soon.
If you have a church that builds you up spiritually, and fosters your Christian growth– good for you! You can keep on Churching for the both of us!
It isn’t that I haven’t tried out enough churches (lifetime number of different churches I’ve attended: 16)
It isn’t that I haven’t given the churches I’ve tried a chance (I attended one the Seminaries of the last one, remember?)
It isn’t that I dislike Christianity, Or even Christians (in general…).
It’s that I find the people I meet within church organizations tend to be much more flighty and/or disagreeable than the people I meet outside of church.
Besides, at the end of the day, I don’t need someone to read the Bible to me (I am quite literate, thank you; and I own like, 12 Bibles).
I don’t need someone to explain what the Bible says to me, nor do I need someone to tell me how to live. ( I’ve got the Holy Spirit to do that, and the Spirit doesn’t let me fall asleep during their ‘sermons’)
I don’t need someone asking me for money — we tithe the equivalent of an entire income! Because that is what we gave up when God led us to homeschool our kids. That’s like, a lot more than 10%, right? (Don’t worry, my husband is in charge of teaching math…)
Why did I even go to church in the first place?
Well, I went to church to give back to the Body of Christ…
…But what I got was much heartache– the spread of horrendous lies, a dizzying amount of harassment, and an attempt to destroy the reputation of both me and my Woodsman.
And we both did nothing wrong.
I thought if I could become a Pastor myself, maybe I could like church. Maybe I could help church be more like what I believe Christ wants it to be. And help people on the fringes of society feel a part of the family of God.
But, some things are not meant to be. Me in the role of a traditional pastor is one of those things.
Which, is fine by me. The institutional church is dying. And it’s dying because of experiences like mine, and the experiences of millions of other Christians like me.
Before Seminary, the dying church made me sad. After Seminary, the dying church makes me feel vindicated. Because I’m not the only one spending my Sunday mornings on my deck, sipping a cup of coffee…
Is there an alternative to traditional church involvement?
That’s what I’ve been praying about as of late. I would love a way to assemble with other believers like me– ones that see church as a way to collectively serve and gather with those Christ would serve and gather with if He was humanly present.
I haven’t found anything like that yet. Our one attempt at joining a home church was short lived… It took one meeting to realize that we are even further outside of the Christian box than the home church trend.
Well, this one’s on You, God. I’m theologically over-educated and burned out on church. What else You got?