I go all Momma Bear when it comes to issues with Christianity. I’m quick to anger when it’s been my children that have been hurt the most by people in church.
I want so badly for my children to find support in developing the kind of relationship that I have with God. To find a personal knowledge and experience of God that goes beyond catechism and learning about a Sunday school Jesus.
They should have a faith community that does just that. But, there is none that I can find.
What’s the value of church if it fails to love and honor the least of these among us?
I’m a big girl. I don’t need a church for me, and I haven’t needed one for quite some time. But it brings deep sorrow to my heart that my children do not have the kind of faith community they deserve.
I know that God will provide what my children need spiritually–even without a church worthy of our involvement. All along the way, God has used me to reach my childrens’ hearts in ways that are miraculous to me. He knows what they need, and helps me to meet those needs.
But, is that enough?
What about the Body of Christ? How do I integrate that aspect of Christianity into their faith formation when their experience of Christians outside of our nuclear family has been so harmful to their developing self-concepts?
I would be a terrible parent to allow a church to hurt them again. Am I a terrible parent to raise them as Christians outside of church?