I think it’s funny that Christians are always telling each other how to live their lives. ‘It is God’s will that — insert something that is most likely their will—‘
Sure, I’ve been guilty of it too… But I try to avoid making spiritual universals out of my own personal particulars.
Especially when it comes to knowing the will of God.
This question haunts me at times. When God appears to be silent, and logic takes me to a fork in the road, while my heart would be fine going in any direction, which way do I go?
I’ll give you some context for my ramblings on God’s will: My Woodsman found out he was not chosen for a different position in the institution he currently works for. He was well qualified for it, and did everything right in applying and interviewing. He had a 1 in 7 chance of being chosen. But they chose someone else. Maybe God The Destroyer has returned? We prayed for God’s will, and circumstances tell us His answer is No.
We’ve been putting off making any changes in our “5 year plan” until after we received news on this position. Now that we know, I can’t stall any longer. Nothing ties us to this place except for my husband’s employment. And he’s not too keen on staying where he is, doing what he’s been doing the past three years…
So, what is God’s will for us now? Do we keep the status quo? The one that none of us are satisfied with? Or do we take a huge risk and set off in search of greener pastures?
If it was just my Woodsman and I, the choice would be easy. We’d be gone tomorrow! But it’s not that simple when we need to keep things like health insurance and suitable housing in mind. Four little kiddos complicate matters.
I’m tired of praying for guidance. I’m tired of praying for it when I’m not getting any real kind of response.
I want to do God’s will, but what do you do when you have no idea what that is?
Maybe He’s giving us the freedom to choose as we will. Well, that sucks. How can I possibly predict the actual outcome of the choices I’m considering?
Sheesh, God. You are the One with Infinite knowledge! Can you help a girl out?
I never really cared that much about God’s will until we moved here. Maybe I care more now because I trust myself less. Maybe my human mind cannot fathom the need for total spiritual dependence and simultaneous license to guide my own life as I see fit.
I just want to know the right answer! Is that too much to ask?
What if there is no right answer? What if both choices are equally adequate? What if they’re not?! What if I choose the wrong one?!?
I’m going to sleep on it. That’s always a good choice;)
And if God’s will is made clear to me and/or my Woodsman, we will act accordingly.
If not? Then….
….eany, meany, miney, mo!
Seriously, does any one of you know how to cast lots? It’s Biblical!